I have a '24 hour rule'. That is, if I do smoke whilst on my trial stop smoking, then I must not smoke the next day. That is my only rule.
After my second freefall into Smoketown on Friday, I have comfortably negotiated the rest of the weekend without cigarettes.
Monday feels quite positive. For me it is a time when I can get busy again and away from the party lifestyle - that I really need right now if I am going to stop smoking properly.
However, I had a think over the weekend. As I mention at the beginning of this blog, I enjoy smoking. I really do and that still holds true. Some people turn their noses up at this and say that it is a disgusting, yucky, smelly habit. I agree. I still like it and I don't see how anyone is going to change that!
Here lies a problem. I never want to go back to being a habitual smoker. I am asking myself, can I have the occasional cigarette? Well, that is how I started again when I quit before.
Some of my friends can do this. They have one or two cigarettes at a party and don't smoke for months on end.
This is dangerous ground. I am not fully committed to not smoking. I am committed to not being a habitual smoker - there is big difference.
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